Sunday Scaries Edition: If You’re Dreading Tomorrow, Read This

This is not a post telling you what you should do. This is a soft place to land. 

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Sometimes it starts in my core—like a pit dropping straight through me. Then it spreads. It builds. A quiet rising of anxiety until it feels like water climbing up to my neck. 

That’s what Sunday can feel like when I’m already bracing for what’s ahead:

• The to-dos I didn’t finish.

• The meetings I maybe overbooked.

• The fear that this week will swallow me before it even starts.
  

It’s easy to lose Sunday trying to out-plan the dread. Trying to “get ahead” instead of being here. Trying to earn rest by performing preparedness.

But what I’ve learned—slowly, reluctantly—is this:

Rest isn’t rest if you’re carrying a to-do list through it.

If that pressure is building, scrap the plan. Leave the phone behind (or at least turn it off). Don’t try to scroll your way out of the spiral… it won’t work.

Just leave the house.

Walk, drive, bike, whatever gets you in motion. Don’t map it. Don’t optimize it. Just get to the first intersection, and go where you feel like going. Left or right — that’s it. You don’t need a route. You need space.

Remember: You are not your calendar. You are not your inbox. You are not a list waiting to be checked off. 

And if you find something beautiful along the way — good.

You were supposed to.